Day 28: Don’t. Resist. It
My emotions were still weighting me down. I had an emotional moment before going to work. I was emotionally tired but my spirit was still strong. This detoured direction threw me off. I kept asking myself how can this be true? Is it too good to be? Or perhaps it was coming for a while. I really don’t know anymore. The more I questioned it, the more I became confused. My Spirit Guide was asking me to “go with the flow. Don’t question it. You’ll see the truth.”
Ah, the past two weeks were most strange weeks of my life. Too much going on within short span of time. Hell, I don’t even know how to put it in words. I was frustrated that I was numbing myself. Too numb to feel the truth. I was blocking myself from feeling it out of fear. Feared that it’s almost here. Too soon to tell or too soon to be here for me? I had a moment where I felt so sure but the next moment I wasn’t sure anymore. Back and forth and back and forth about this new direction to take. However, I questioned it whether was it already a new direction for me to walk or was it a direction waiting for me to take? You see my dilemma here. Ha. I could feel myself resisting it because it felt so good and safe that I couldn’t believe it truly does exist.
I am at loss with words here. I keep hearing from my Spirit Guide telling me, “Don’t resist it. Go with the flow. You will feel frustrated, become angry, get hurt, and fall in love. All those kind of emotions you will feel are necessary to clear out your energies. Too many are blocked and clogged in your soul. It is time to release it and get it out of your system. It is important to be very honest with yourself and others. BE VERY HONEST. Honesty is the keyword here. Don’t sell yourself short. Don’t settle for less. You as always are very deserving of happiness and love.”
Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don’t resist them: that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like. -Lao-Tzu