Day 5: Thick-Skinned
Today’s energy was much calmer and soft that it made me sleepy. It also pushed me to reflect within me. I’ve been thinking a lot.. well, always! but today I had a conversation with my Angels about an issue that have been on my mind for a long time. Last Saturday, I had a dinner with a long time friend who was like a brother to me. Beforehand, I had a goal upon meeting him. My goal was to tell him that I have an ability of communicating with Spirits but I froze and allowed him to rant. Of course I was being a good friend listening to his personal issues and frustration. I don’t mind listening and giving advice. It’s a part of my core as an empath, sensitive, and Psychic. However, I was secretly frustrated with myself. “Why did the hell did I froze? Why can’t I just tell him that I am a Psychic!? What’s the fuck wrong with me?” We shared a lot of similar values and beliefs but he’s somewhat active Mormon. We discussed a bit about religion. There were a couple of times where I wanted to chime in and tell him about my cool superpower but I held myself back.
Why did I stop myself? Why am I so concerned about my friend’s reaction? I don’t know how will he react to my gift. He might rebelled and argued about my “beliefs.” My friend might get scared of me or perhaps he might now know what to do with me. I honestly do not know how will he take the news. He was not only friend I wanted to tell. I wanted to tell people who were close to me. I asked myself, “Why is it so important to you to tell everyone that you’re a Psychic?” Because it is ME. It is who I AM. Its my core of my being. MY essence of life. Being a Psychic Medium is my mission here on earth. Yet I am scared to tell people that I see and talk with spirits.
Yes, religion play a factor here. In this society, religion is often misused, misinterpreted, misunderstood, and to be intimidated. That enraged me but it also sparked a fire under me to move forward toward my mission and waking up people. Thousands of people were either half-asleep or very sleepy. Come on. Wake up, people. I was told by a Psychic friend that as I go through a journey of honing my gift, I would need to build a thick skin. My friend emphasized, “Thick skin, THICK SKIN.” I think I understood why. Building a thick skin against religious people who might want to take me down and tries to sway me. It is not a bad thing because it is an armor shield against swords that want to prick me, stab me, cut me, and slay my soul. I now understand as a Psychic Medium that being a thick-skinned comes with it. It is not easy being a Psychic Medium in this world but I cannot ignore my calling. First, I need to build an armor shield.
You can’t be afraid of what people are going to say because you’re never going to make everyone happy. -Selena Gomez