Day 2: Feeling Lighter
Yesterday, I craved for quick fixes to manage my stress. I just realized that my stress level was at the highest. My stress was mostly based on ego fears. I was stressed over my spiritually based career and…next love partner (just like everyone! ha) Ever since when I understood my gift better, my passion and mission were pushing me to share knowledge and messages worldwide. Doing it daily was a blessing but sometimes, it can be hard at times. I knew everyone started at the bottom of the ladder then eventually climb to the top. I was still at the bottom but I knew it was a great place to start. Last night after I wrote the blog, I received a God sent reading to assure me that I was still on the right path. I thanked the Lord for this beautiful confirmation. I kept telling myself, “Baby steps. Baby steps.” Hence, I was there stuffing my face, however, it only worked for a time being because it came back sooner than I wanted. Indeed, I allowed the stress get me. I was pushing it down quietly and binging artificial temporary highs all long day.
Today I woke up feeling quite refreshing and lighter. Actually, my soul was smiling inside. I still have the hope, yes. I did not know how I get to this point but I suspected that writing down my feelings helped. It has been a while since I wrote in my blog. It was a perfect timing to write again. I proceeded to get ready for work. I didn’t have sweet cravings. I actually craved for tea. I craved for good healthy foods that make me feel amazing.
Today I listened to stress and put it aside far away from me. I choose to not allow it dictate my inner peace. I choose to not be stressed out. I choose to not let my ego fears get the best of me. I thought to myself, “I am okay. I am perfectly good. I do not feel stress. I feel at peace. I now control my stress.” HOWEVER, it does not mean I master at managing stress. Admittedly, I was running late and I felt rushed. I grabbed two small bite size of Snickers from the front office. Tiny bumps there but I kept my stress at the bay.
My lunch break came and I was craving for an Açaí bowl. It was an Açaí bowl with almond milk, peanut butter, frozen strawberries, frozen bananas, Açaí powder with toppings of bananas and blueberries. I was in heaven. Devoured it all. I felt amazing afterwards. Those fruits sent an energy rush to my body. The stress was still at the sidelines looking at me. I did not look at them. I looked up and moved forward, smiling. Floating on light and love…
No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path. -Buddha